Nice cool day...almost as if autumn has already arrived, although that's not until Sept. 22, I believe.  Today's run will be enjoyable.

Getting Help

God is there to help us.  Today I realized that I am having some internal problems and issues that have plagued me for years.  In the past I would let them get the best of me and displace my personal issues on others through anger and blame.

Today, through my close relationship with God, I was able to see that my issues are just that: my issues.  Blaming someone else is an easy way to avoid admitting that I'm not always strong and that I may be "faulty".  I need some help.  I may need to see  a counselor to work through some of this stuff.  Doesn't mean I'm not a good believer, a good husband, a good dad, a good lawyer.  It just means I have some stuff to work through.

In many ways, going to see a counselor is like getting the help we need from God.  We need to be able to unashamedly pray to God and ask for help.  So I do that now: 

     "God, please help me deal with my emotional issues.  Whatever it is in my body that causes me to get depressed or feel inadequate, please help me deal with that in the way that only You can.  I pray that instead of taking my issues out on others, I can admit my faults to others, before You, and receive your blessings. I pray that my emotional issues do not cause me to exacerbate problems such as financial woes, normal sources of stress, and work issues.  I pray that I can turn to my wife and my children and my friends as sources of support, and not see them as sources of more pain.  I know that as long as I have You, I have nothing to fear.  I pray these things in the name of Jesus, Amen."

I would also like to share these words, which I have posted on the main page as the weekly Bible verse:

"His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness.  Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desires."

2 Peter 1:3-4.

God is great.  If this believer had to attest to only one thing, it is that today is the first time in my life I could honestly admit that I suffer from chronic depression.  God has helped me to see that.  God has helped me to see that my depression issues are not my fault, and that I can still function as a healthy member of society. 

As I always say in my blogs, being a believer doesn't mean life won't be hard.  But as in this case today, I can affirm that being a believer sure does make the hard things in life easier to deal with.  Because as the passage from 2 Peter above states, through God's divine power, of which I have knowledge, I can escape the corruption in the world, such as the lingering thoughts inside my head telling me to get angry with others for my own faults. 

Thank you, God.  I love you, I trust you, I believe in you, and I know you exist with all of my heart and soul. 

Until tomorrow...

Come Believe.